Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Random things. Or- a "get to know me" post.

So, this is a random and pretty much useless post of facts about me.
Here goes.  (This could get interesting. I'm tired, and it's late.) I'll start with generally know, and work down to little known. 
Where to start.....?

- I am in my 23rd year of life, almost 24th if you count womb time. 

-When I was younger I don't ever remember being a size 6 pants or less... Smallest size I remember is size 8. I guess I either skipped, or just didn't care before. 

- I used to think/pretend I was an indian, never wore makeup, and wore a feather in my hair. i had a bow and arrows too. Was pretty good at shooting!

- Walking barefoot is always preferable to shoes

-Black Coffee is the bomb. I usually don't take cream or sugar. But I will take coconut milk if available.

-Midwifery has been my chosen vocation and passion since I was 5 years old. 

-In the past 2.5 years i've moved 10 times. 

-I've never had a real boyfriend. In fact, I rarely think about having a boyfriend at all, at least not for awhile. Perfectly happy single, thank you!

-I have used a taser on a stinkbug.

-People usually think I'm more crazy, or wild, or something... than I actually am. By myself I'm actually pretty boring. 

-Going overseas as a missionary is something I really want to do someday.

-Gardening is fabulous fun, as is pulling weeds. Especially when angry or upset.

-Crying actual real tears is very rare. The most I do is get moisture in my eyes. Unless it's an intense emotion.

-Yelling is not my thing (I rarely do it, VERY rarely) However, if someone yells at me or even raises their voice I'm reduced to tears in minutes.  As mentioned above, tears are very rare. 

- I've attended over 170 births as an assistant, doula, and student midwife. 

- When I drink even a tiny bit of soda I burp for an hour. 

-I'm allergic to wheat, sugar, and corn and anything with wheat, sugar or corn in it. So that's about everything yummy. I usually eat them all anyway. 

-Sleeping in a bright room, with people around, in front of a movie, or on many cups of coffee is no problem at all. 

- The more Messy something is, the more fun it is. And you can usually gauge my level of enjoyment of something by how messy I or the room am.

-My eyes change color, they can be blue, green or grey. Sometimes slightly hazel. 

- I can't stand board games, except on certain occasions. Even then, for a limited time. 

-I LOVE collards, spinach, and other green veggies. But I hate asparagus, and pretty much all squash. 

- Often I pretend I'm invisible. And I think often, I really am (figuratively). 

-I have never fallen asleep at the wheel, or even nodded off. Even after being up over 50 hours straight.

- My big toes are at least an inch bigger/taller than my other toes.  It's like I have the MIGHTY TOE syndrome or something. 

- I usually won't touch someone unless they touch me first. (like a pat, or a hug or something)

- I twist the hem of my shirts around my fingers when I'm nervous. That's why there's often tiny holes on the bottom of all of my shirts. 

-I rarely dream, but when I do dream- it's 9 times out of 10 always a nightmare. 

-I've kept journals since 1996. (I was 7 years old) and I like to go back and read them! 

Well, there you go!! that should be long enough, perhaps too long!!

Hope you were entertained. 

~Kate :)

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Step by Step.

I'm only human; I'm just a girl
Help me believe in what I could be and all that I am
Show me the stairway
I have to climb
Lord for my sake
Teach me to take
One day at a time

One day at a time, sweet Jesus
That's all I'm asking from you
Give me the strength to do everything that I have to do
Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Help me today
Show me the way
One day at a time.

This particular song has been stuck in my head the past few days. I've forgotten where I heard it first, It seems to echo out of some distant memory when I was a child. I'm sure I heard it at some gospel singing or something... 
The words however, resonate with me right now. 

"Show me the stairway/I have to climb/Lord for my sake/Teach me to take/One day at a time"

That's all we can do, one day at a time. How did the ant eat the elephant? One bite at a time?
No matter how fast we go, no matter how big our dreams- the fastest we can get there is one breathe, one step, one second at a time. No faster- for anyone. No matter how great or small. 

What's my mountain right now? Several things, Nursing school- for one, how all thats going to work...Midwifery, the desire to travel, to see new places and experience new things. Work, how I pay bills..... I mean, I even worry about what God's will for my life is, and if I'm in the center of His will!
Today, however- in my quiet time I read Psalm 40. In the very beginning of this beautiful Psalm were the words "I waited patiently  for the Lord, He turned to me, and heard my cry"
What really struck me here was the word Waited. 
Not in turmoil, not worrying, not doing things, running around like a chicken with your head lopped off, not scrounging around wondering what to do...
Next part. " God TURNED to me, and HEARD my cry, and BROUGHT ME OUT of the pit, out of the miry clay"
Who's doing the actions here? God. He's turning, hearing, and bringing me out. What am I doing? 
In the next few verses of the Psalm God sets my feet on a rock, give me a firm place to stand, and a New Song of Praise to sing. Other see it- the testimony of Grace. Fear God, and trust in the Lord. Did *I* have anything to do with it? Well, yes, and no. All I did was wait. (That in and of itself can be hard) For those of you that know me... I like to have a PLAN and everything mapped out... IN DETAIL. On one hand I can be very last minute and flexible, on another I'm incredibly particular about details. (Weird mish-mosh, I know.)
Back to my point...
My choice to Wait on the Lord not only blesses me, but brings others to trusting in the Lord. What a testimony! 

So, now that I've heard this message, preached to myself a bit, and had the light bulb come on....
Now I just have to wait and trust. 
Thankfully all I have to do is take one day, one step, one breath at a time.