Thursday, August 8, 2013

To Nursing school and beyond!

Hello friends!

Currently I sit here in the comfort of a house, on an actual bed, in the AC! I must say, living in a tent is a wonderful adventure- but I like having an actual bed. I'll add a few pictures of my campsite in this post.
As many of you know, I am enrolled in Centra College of Nursing, and I begin classes on August 19th. I'm completely terrified, and incredibly excited at the same time!! My scrubs came in the mail 2 days ago, I tried them on. The pants were too big, but I still felt pretty "legit".
Books are also coming in the mail now too, I have quite a little pile!

I'd appreciate your prayers as I attempt this thing called nursing school!

Following are some pictures I've taken over the summer. I'm not too dedicated with picture taking, so there are large gaps. But anyway, here goes!

 Adventures on SML with friends
 The view from my window at the campsite!
 I got new glasses! They're a little geeky, but cute. 
 My car just went over 200000 miles. YIPES!
 My hammock!
 Some of my art up at a local coffee shop. 
 My "little pile" of books etc for nursing school.
And, a recent picture of me (taken yesterday)

blessings to you and yours!

Friday, June 21, 2013

Tents, nursing school, and pictures.

Part of me is wondering why I'm even updating this blog right now, however... I shall continue. Many things have been taking place. I'm moving in a week to another town about 45 minutes away from me. As some of you know, I'll be living in a tent!!! At least for the summer. That leads me to the second piece of news: I've been accepted into Nursing School!!!!!! I'll be attending starting this August, and finishing in 2015. I'll come out with my ADN (RN), and then I'll go on to get my BSN as time and money allows.
So many things are changing so fast right now, I'm looking for work, a place to live in August, and scholarships and grants for nursing school. I'll be having to take out some loans too. Yikes. It just feels like a lot at once, and I'm attempting to not get overwhelmed.
Prayers would be appreciated!
Here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure.
My Tent:

My tent again!!
 Me: (obviously)

Sunset from near my tent

And me being goofy :)

Lauren and I!!!

I am a viking. Woohoo.

There's everything in a nutshell. I'll be updating from my tent next time!! :) 


Sunday, April 21, 2013

Do Something Different

"They laughed because she was different, she laughed because they were all the same."

I saw this quote earlier today, it didn't say who it was by (but I'm sure google knows). Although I've seen it before it struck a particular chord with me today. Perhaps because right now I'm making some decisions that many..well.. most.. normal people would consider strange, perhaps even rash. However, these said decisions are not BAD in nature, nor are they harmful. Just.... different. So far the reactions to them have been quite varied, when I've mentioned them. 

Thinking on the different-ness of these decisions and reflecting some over some of my past decisions on my life I realize that I *AM* rather different. In many ways "counterculture".  First off: home schooled. That's the basis right there- I was counterculture from the start! Not to mention midwifery, moving around apprenticing to midwives, living with Amish people, messianic feast-keeper, lover of things hippie, wearer of flashy skirts, sort of gypsyish in nature. I rarely stay in one place more than a year and a half. It's who I am. 

This day and age people seem to frown on that sort of different, especially not living the "american dream" for my age group.  College. Debt. Husband. House. Debt. Kids.Grandkids. Piles of Debt. 
 (Not that it's ALWAYS this way. I'm talking about the a-typical american burgers-and-baseball dream here.)  They don't seem to frown on being their kind of "Different" (aka worldly and strange). It actually seems like everyone wants to be  that kind of different in some way! To be unique from the rest of the  worldly and strange world... So it's become vogue to be different. I'm not saying I want to be THAT kind of different. It says in the scriptures in Ecclesiastes that "there is nothing new under the sun". Well, that's true! True for me as well, and I realize that. 

So, bottom line to this 3 paragraph long ramble is: just because people don't approve of what you are doing doesn't mean you shouldn't do it. After all, we are to pay attention to the "Audience of One". Aim to please Him only. Seek His approval. If He opens the door and says Go- you GO. No matter what the naysayers chant, your head tells you, or how much you worry about how it will work out. 

<End Ramble>

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

It's all about Perspective

(Prepare for reading a slight pity party)

Right now, the obstacles that are looming seem pretty daunting, and rather monstrous. I see the end goal I have in mind... and sometimes it seems I can never get there. Often I struggle with having to do it all alone, feeling walled off and unable to receive any help.
But it's all about perspective.
Tonight, I'm sitting here feeling pretty darn discouraged and alone in this whole mess. Yes, I know there is One who sticks closer than a brother, the One who can carry my burdens, and will be there for me always no matter what. Yes, in my head I KNOW He is there. But my head is showing my heart the to-do list before me. Filled with things I stink at, and downright hate. (In this instance, I speak of math and taxes). I'm in for a huge stretching and growing period in the next few weeks, and I know it. I also know that the outcome of the next few weeks will alter my life in several ways. Of course, those aren't the only things on my to-do list, and I could list it for you, but I have a feeling it would only overwhelm me, and bore you, to literally write it all out.

These things, I'm sure, are just paltry matters to some of you. As well as other people in the world. In the grand scheme of things, I know I have small troubles. This is where I was thinking about perspective. I'm feeling the earth shattering effects of sucking at Algebra, and dreading tests etc. While another person may be wondering where the next meal for their family will come from. In a way, they aren't equally detrimental; but does a three year old who loses a cookie suffer any less pain, frustration, or sadness than a 30 year old who loses her job? I don't think so. It's all relative, I think.
However, with age comes some degree of perspective, and I'm needing a good dose of it.

So now comes the "jerking myself up by my bootstraps" and soldering on routine. One that has become repeatedly familiar the past few months. Why IS that?
Why DOES it have to be so complicated? Am I to be learning something that just won't go through my hard skull? Probably. Am I going about this all wrong that it has to be so difficult and frustrating?

Bottom line. Being an adult stinks. Having to make decisions, and then take responsibility for those decisions and consequences (good and bad) stinks.

I know "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" and "with prayer and supplication with thanksgiving make your requests made known to the Lord".
Now, I just need to WALK in all that. And there's the hard part. Knowing this is NOT the end of the world,  others have way worse crisis' going on, and in the end- it'll work out, has to be acknowledged.
Staying my mind on Christ, and making my plans line up with His should be my focus and goal. Not graduating nursing school, not moving, not traveling, not having a fantastic lovely garden.
Perhaps a full night's sleep will help with perspective.
Abba, help me to dwell in your perfect peace, and trust in Your plan.

<end pity party>

That being said, I'd really appreciate your prayers.

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Heigh-Ho for Husbands? (A Scriptural Perspective on Being Single)

"Thus goes everyone to the world but I, and I am sunburnt. I may sit in a corner and cry, 'Heigh-ho for a husband!'"
~ Beatrice in Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing (Act II, scene i.)

Last weekend I was in a discussion among a group of about 15 women. The split was pretty even between older, married "moms" and single women about my age.
The topic?

"Do girls need to stay at home "under their fathers authority" until married?"

This topic is one that is a bit close to home for me. As many of you know, I moved out of my parents house (with their help and blessing) to apprentice to a midwife back in 2010; and haven't moved home since. I have gotten some flak about that, and several people have asked if I'm in rebellion. I'm not! My life is just in a different direction than some other young women my age. Does that make it sinful?
For many girls that were raised like me (Home-schooled Christian Conservative) it's NOT the norm to move out before you're married. In fact, it's rather frowned upon.
Based on the verse in Titus 2:

Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good,)
 and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled.

Many of the older women in the discussion believed that their daughters were to stay at home, learn how to cook, clean, help with the children, and be content- until such time as the Lord brings a husband. While there is nothing whatsoever wrong with this... I have a question. What if... a girl was 20...25..30...35... before she got married.

 The marriage gap is quite a bit bigger these days than it was when Paul wrote his letter to the Corinthians. What's to do in the meantime?

1 Cor. 7 says  "the unmarried or betrothed woman is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit. "

(bear with me, I do have a point coming...)

Take into consideration the Proverbs 31 woman. The proverb speaks of her "maidens"... well.. who are they? I contend that it's the single women, either daughters or other single women. Caring after the things of the Lord! These maidens are helping the Proverb's 31 woman with her tasks and caring for her family! Whether her own family, or another woman's family.... it's still a ministry, and possibly working outside the home as a mothers helper.
What if women my age (23) were to drop all that we are doing, watching children at home, nannying, caring for sick people, learning nursing or another profession, (midwifery?).... where would we be? Where would our society be?

I think this illustrates the importance of single women both inside the home, and elsewhere, if led to go.
We can't just wait around!

My questions are this....

What does a home ministry or business look like?
At what point or age is it okay for a girl to get a job?
Or to move out?
Or to move out permanently?
What about college or more education? (which is frowned on by alot of people)
Does physical proximity have anything to do with being "under your fathers authority"?

I believe there is no blanket right answer to any of these questions.

What may be right for one girl, maybe completely WRONG for another!

I DO believe however, that like any education, learning to be a "discreet, chaste, keeper at home" has it's graduation date. There's a day where you know how to make bread in your sleep, and can wash dishes like a pro. Etc.

I believe the "under the father's authority" is not necessarily a physical proximity; but actually a heart issue. If you're 10000 miles away, and you're heart is right, you're in your parents blessing, and there is no tension- Then you're under your parent's authority. If you are in the next room, and your heart isn't right. You aren't under your parents authority.

I believe that "under your parents authority" is also limited. You are an adult. You have a choice. And unless you're in direct rebellion, your parents (who should love and trust you, and have raised you right) will allow you to make decisions.

I believe that it's not a sin to get a job. If you're able, willing, and skilled... why be a financial burden? My parents encouraged me to make money, save, and become skilled with my finances while I was still able to be at home. That way it would be SO much easier on my own.

 Most importantly, I believe that wherever you go, whatever you do... you should listen to God's direction, and have that direction validated by your parents. Just remember God's not a God of boxes, so prepare to step out of your comfort zone every once in a while. :)

In closing, we should be using our time of singleness for His Glory. Not for waiting for a husband. We are created to be used for a purpose greater than ourselves. 

There are things a woman shouldn't do (I believe) simply because we aren't suited for it! Such as the army, or police work. But there are also things men shouldn't do! Such as midwifery, or other "womanly" pursuits. The midwives in the Bible were honored and respected, they needed training, just as I need training to become a nurse.
 I have several friends who have gotten degrees at home online, will be going on missions trips, or are thinking of starting other ministries from home. That's absolutely fabulous!
Not everyone can do these things, however. Either because they aren't called to, or aren't able. 

So, whatever you're called to do, do it with all your heart!!! 

For now,
I for one, am not going to sit back and cry for a husband like Beatrice did. 
There is too much to do!!

Everyone will have a difference of opinion on this subject. (So, let's not go banging anyone, myself included, with a 2x4)
Stop and think, though... what is your opinion based on? How can you think outside the box on this issue?
After all, there is more than one way to skin a cat. (Or kill a chicken, for that matter)

I'd appreciate your feedback.

PS. This is a bit scattered, I realize that... so I may rewrite a bit later. But for now, I haven't the time.

(Part 2 to follow at a later date)

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Pocket Riders

"Pocket Riders"
I hadn't heard of that term until today. What is a pocket rider, you might ask? Loosely, it's someone who can't be with you in person, but is with you in spirit, and are thinking of you.
Say, for example, I'm having a bad day. I text a friend and ask her to be my pocket rider. She could say, "sure!" and will proceed to "hop in my pocket".
Corny as it sounds, it basically  means you're never alone.

This may sound rather strange, but I believe that love has no physical perimeters, like space and time. Of course, someone can love you from near, or far away. During a particularly hard time, they can be "with" you too. Just thinking or praying for you.

It's nice to know you have a pocket rider, or a few.
Strangely comforting, I think.

Is that weird?

Thursday, January 31, 2013

A Theory- Of Love and Friends.

So, this is a post that I've been thinking on for awhile now.
This may not be as interesting to you as it is to me- but feel free to comment about it to me!
 (I know most of the people who read this will not comment, but might say something to me via email or facebook, and that's fine. I know commenting can be an annoying process)

First off, let's start with you. Who do you consider your closest friends? Why?

For me, right off the bat I see 3 close friends in my mind's eye that I can't imagine going through life without. They are gifts, and I'm so blessed!
But WHY do I feel this way?  Honestly? Because they spend time with me, they give fabulous hugs, and I know I can call them if I'm in a pinch, and I know at least one (for sure) would be here if I needed her to. They challenge me intellectually (one probably more than the other two. haha) and spiritually, and aren't afraid to ask some of the hard questions.
 That's just to name a few things.
(Proverbs 27:17  As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another )

I mean really, pretty much the only reason we have friends at all is because they can do something for us. (Selfish, right?) Well, we were created to need each other, just like we need God.
(Ecclesiastes 4:9-10   Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work; If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!)

But what is it that attracts to specific people? Of all 3 of my friends I'm thinking of I'm am VASTLY different than all three of them, and they are all vastly different from each other. So, what's some of the things that are in common?
Well, other than the obvious- agreeing on (most) doctrinal points, and perhaps enjoying some of the same things. Dancing, singing, gardening, talking etc. there's another thing!

And this is my theory- often some of the best friends are created because we have the same top love languages.
I'm sure you're familiar with the 5 love languages.

-Acts of service
-Words of affirmation
-Quality time

Of course, this is boxing people in a bit. ( I can hear one of my friends objecting right now about boxing people in. She's called me out on doing it before.) But I do believe there is SOME truth to this!

So, what are your top 2 or 3 love languages? Mine are (can you guess? If you know me well you should be able to! Because that's WHY you know me well. haha)
#1- Quality Time and #2- Touch.

I'm fairly certain those 3 close friends have at least one of those in their top 2.
Naturally, personality, interests, social standing, education, yada yada yada also plays into this- and there can be any number of combinations of these factors. But without thinking TOO hard. Think of your 1-3 closest friends. What do you do with them? Why do you love being with them?
Why you love being with them is probably partially the same reason they love being with you.

Interesting, huh?
I'm sure this is flawed... so don't pick it apart too much.

Monday, January 28, 2013

God's plans vs My plans

So, I was musing today on God's will for my life... my dreams, desires, hopes- and what I want to accomplish within my lifetime.
I was at Planet Fitness working out on the elliptical watching a bunch of older individuals work out, walk around. Something I noticed- not one of them looked happy.
(Granted, most people don't look overjoyed when working out... but still.)
Now I'm at Cups watching some older and middle aged people as I sit here typing. They don't look too happy either.
The question that comes to mind is this: When I'm old, will I be happy and satisfied with my life, the things I've done, and where I've been.... my path?
Immediately following the question an answer popped in my head like a light turning on.

The question is not 'will *I*  be happy with my life'.
The REAL question is... Will God be happy with my life? It works just like a circle, or a pattern.
If GOD is happy with my life , then I will be happy with  my life; because I followed His plan, and His plans are perfect.

So why do I stress about it? Why do I struggle and mope, search and strive?
If it's in His plan, it will happen.

Sure, there are many many things I WANT to do. (See previous post) But if they aren't in God's plan for me they will be vanity and dead ends and I wouldn't be truly joyful and happy doing them.

Someday I want to be an old lady, and able to tell my children and grandchildren "I followed HIS plan". No matter the ending. I want them to see me happy, content, and joyful; resting in the arms of One Who Loves me.

Oh Abba, help me to trust you to lead. In all circumstances, no matter the cost.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Runaway Gypsy Song

I want to buy a one way ticket
and fly away from here
but I can't cause i've got a fear
of never being found

But why not? It's all relative.
Why not just escape?
go on an adventure
Throw caution to the winds

My heart is wanting freedom
but my head is saying no
to be, and live
far from these normal chains

Im in a rut, and I want out
This is my Runaway Gypsy song
Wild on free
It has a hold on me.

So do I follow my heart?
Or let my  mind win.
I know what you would say.
But that can't hold me down

But still I wonder
If I ran away from here
Would there be ties
Or would all be gone?

would I lose all I've gained?
If I just disappeared?
Yes... and no...
I might gain a whole lot too.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Gadzooks. It might SNOW (a rant on crazy VA people)

So, I don't often rant...but sometimes I do. This is one of the times I do.

I'm not a panicky person, and sometimes panicky people annoy me. As does freaking out over un-necessary things. Snow isn't really one of those things to freak out over, I don't think. The drecho this past summer.... yes THAT was a big deal. Snow? Nope. People up north carry on normal lives in several feet of snow, and actually like it! Soooo.....

First off, I'll believe it's going to snow when I SEE IT SNOWING AND STICKING.
Until then, no.
I've heard multiple reports- ranging from 1-3 inches, all the way up to 9 inches. Great.
People have already canceled babysitting. *shakes head* Gee. Thanks y'all. I kinda needed that money.

And no, I'm NOT going to run to walmart to get my bread, milk, eggs, and other things panicky crazy VA people get when we might be snowed under and unable to go ANYWHERE at 1-3 inches.
I mean, lets face it...we will starve in the possible 24 hours it MIGHT stick here in central VA.
 So QUICK! Buy bread, milk, and eggs,how about a plant to brighten up the room?, extra batteries, a new toilet seat, enough beans and rice to feed africa, lettuce, maybe some ammo in case we need to hunt squirrels, skis, gummy bears, lanterns, some extra camping gear for good measure, and a giant snow shovel (for our 1-3 inches of snow), and maybe a bit more milk. Never know...

I'm feeling sarcastic. Can you tell?

Now I feel better. 

Monday, January 14, 2013

Brains, beans, brakes.

Hey Y'all! 

 So, earlier today I came across this quote:

"Don't be so open-minded your brains fall out" (G. K. Chesterton)
My first reaction was to bust out laughing at the mind-picture. But then I actually thought about it. It is TRUE! That's exactly what might happen. People often get so "enlightened" and "open minded" and "tolerant" that eventually, they have nothing concrete to stand for; and go running around to the next big fad or belief system. As time passes all these people can stand for IS open-mindedness. Which in and of itself, I believe, is dumb. Agreed, we shouldn't just slam people for no good reason, or negate anyones beliefs just because they don't line up with ours... but we shouldn't just take on any doctrine, belief, or rule simply because we want to be open minded! 
A verse comes to mind, "Take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ our Lord". This means EVERY thought. Whether it comes from a trusted friend, or from someone you know is out to get you. (so to speak anyway).

Waffling around believing this thing, or that thing just isn't good for us. I'm preaching to myself just as much as to you, of course. I struggle with wanting to conform, to belong, and to be accepted into whatever group I happen to find. So, find the basics. Your doctrine, your belief system. What you rock solid, no doubt in your mind, KNOW to be true; and go from there! 

On to the beans part of my title... the other day I was marveling at the fact that I was, for a lack of anything else in the house, eating a can of black beans for dinner. Not the healthiest, but whatever. It could've been worse. Those of you who know me also know that I pretty rarely have anything worth eating in the house. I was thinking how lovely it was to just, you know... open beans and eat them. No cooking, no cleaning of dishes... I could just do my developmental psych reading, and eat beans. 
It was pretty awesome! ;)

As for brakes- I have a praise report!! I slid out into oncoming traffic in an intersection today, in the rain and fog, and nearly hit several cars. (I neglected to tell my parents this, but will later... hopefully they won't read it here first. LOL) Blessing is...I'm ALIVE, obviously! The other thing is, I went to firestone to get the brakes looked at- and it was a whopping $802 to have them fixed and a few measly metal parts replaced. I had a HERD OF COWS! That is ALOT OF MONEY. (Like, almost 2 weeks worth of work for me). 
Then I called another mechanic a friend gave me the number for..... turns out he and his wife are homeschool graduates, Christians, and know a bunch of people I do! Bottom line is, he fixed it for $129. Big difference, aye!? What a blessing.
Yah provides, my friends!! 

Anyway, that's my news for now. 

Blessings, love and light your way!

Friday, January 4, 2013

A (VERY RANDOM) picture post.

A recent pic of....ME!

And me- again. holding a deer heart (which I got for my birthday from a friend!!)

Floydfest 2012!
One of my best friends, Alaina. (she came to visit for my birthday) 

My sister Lauren, and "adopted sister"Hope (duck faces. yipes!)

I dyed a bit of my hair purple this summer.

Horseback riding in Buchanan with a friend. 

 My Halloween Costume- a Gypsy!

Picture I painted for a friend.

Dissecting a deer brain with my friend "Wyatt". (Not pictured cause I didn't think he'd want to be on the blog)

A hairdo! (Done by alaina)


A hand bound journal I made for a friend for Christmas. (If you know her, which some of you do- you might see it in person!) I was quite proud of this one... I've made 7 so far. 

Another bestie, Katie and I! We are on top of a mountain- at peaks of otter.

Another picture I painted. 

I hope some of you enjoyed these pictures!! I wanted to put up more, but many were of just me (boring)- or of friends. I wasn't sure if those friends would want their pictures online.

(posted just for YOU. Yes, you *know* who you are.)

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

2012. On Trust, Bravery, and Friendship (among other things)

When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
Ps. 61:2

Ahh, 2012. What a crazy, wonderful, turbulent year it was. Indeed, I am glad it's over. It's somehow refreshing to have a whole new year stretched out in front of you, full of possibilities and new things. Of course, it's rather scary on the whole, but a good scary. Anyhow- on to the original topic. 
What I have learned this past year. (I'm sure this would be a much longer post if I had my other journal with me. It's sad how much I forget and need to go back over. But it is what it is.)

1. Trusting God.
 I am still working on this one. Not alone, of course- with God's help. It's a long process. Trusting that God is sufficient for everything I need. Finding my sufficiency in God alone; Not work, money, friends, or other earthly things. Then truly believing this fact, and leaning on God, His Word, and His interpretation of my life rather than my own. 

2. Suffering has it's purposes. 
When God allows suffering it's for a reason.  It's not an enemy, but a friend in disguise, and as painful as it can be while it's there it's always worth it in the end. I still dread pain and suffering in all it's forms, but I'm learning not to. If I can let go of my fear and trust myself to faithful, loving, gentle Creator and accept that He has a purpose behind the darkness then I can fall into the arms of Love without hesitation. 

3. Becoming who I am. 
I am learning to be who I am, and who I'm meant to be. Trying to be a shadow of someone else not only puts you in their shade (yes, you can quote me on that) but it keeps you from being the person God meant you to be. I think often I'm misunderstood. Some people (who think they know me pretty well) think I'm a whole lot more "crazy" or "out there" than I actually am. Sure, I do have a bit of a more wild flare and  maybe some more pizzaz than the next girl … but really, who I am when I'm by myself, in a familiar environment, or when I'm just relaxed and myself… is pretty out and out boring. (To me anyway). I suppose we all must have boring bits of ourselves. But then, who would want to be wild and wooly all the time? Seems exhausting. Anyway, I'm learning to be me- and not someone else's idea of who I should be. 

4. Being "brave" is over-rated. 
Sometimes we all need a little help. I've found myself being bull headed this past year (well, probably longer than that.) And refusing help of any kind when offered. I somehow thought I was a better person for plowing on alone. Then God pointed out my sin of pride. And in that sin, I was depriving someone else of a blessing through blessing me. So- really, we were both out of blessings! Ugh. Stupid pride. 

5. "Where you invest your Love, you invest your life".
A line from one of my favorite songs by Mumford & Sons. If you stop and ponder that thought for a moment you'll find it's very true. 

6. The first step of healing is letting the wound scab over. 
That's something I'd not allowed my wounds to do for awhile. The body and the soul are not too different. A wound on your body won't heal unless you quit picking at it and leave it alone. Same way with the soul. Some things just need time to heal. 

7. Take on Christ's identity. 
I focus too much on what I do, or what I want to do, rather than who I am. For REAL. Way down deep inside. At the very core of myself- I am a Daughter of the King. His Handmaiden. Someone asked me the other day 'what are you now?'. ( yes, strange question) I answered that I was a student midwife, I worked, and I was in pre-nursing classes. Later I stopped to think about that answer, and the actual question. Those 3 things are what I DO. Not what I AM. I'm sure I'm over thinking my friends question, however… the point remains. So often we get mixed up with what we do and make what we do into what we are. I DO midwifery. I AM a daughter of the King. 

8. Not all friends are Friends.
Just because I have 900 something friends on Facebook doesn't make them all my friends. How many of those "friends" would I call at 2am when I'm having a bad night? Which friends would I ask to meet me at the mall for Coffee? What friends would I tell something I was really struggling with and ask for prayer? And of THOSE friends…which of those would do the same to/for me? 
To be honest… not that many at all. I've been thinking about the fact that it's not about the amount of "friends" that you have, but the quality of those friendships. 

9. Freedom is overrated. 
So many young people my age are focussed on freedom, independence, and other things along that line. Well…like everything else, it comes with a price. I can't tell you how many times this past year I've thought.. "I WISH someone would just TELL ME WHAT TO DO!" Unfortunately, things never work that way. 

10. People don't have the right to speak in my life.
It seems lately that multitudes of people have felt the need to "speak into" my life. Well, after a period of trying to make everyone happy, follow everyone's advice, and throw myself in 20 different ways… I decided enough is enough! Now, I've learned to consider the person speaking- the quality of their life, the choices they've made, what kind of relationship they have with me, what's their agenda? In other words, what right do they have to speak into my life? What right do they have to even be IN my life?  What kind of friendship is it? Do we build each other up?

So, there are 10 things I've learned in 2012. (Well, I'm sure some were building up for a long time) As a result of these things I've learned here are a list of things I'm going to work on this New Year. 

-Trust God with small and big things
-Be careful who I call friend, and work on the right friendships.
-Don't allow just anyone to speak into my life.
-Be REAL with everyone.
-Invest my Love in the right places. 

Happy New Year!! 
Be Blessed, 
~Kate :)

Phil. 4:6
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything with prayer and supplication with thanksgiving make your requests known to God. And the peace of God which passes all understanding will rule in your hearts through Christ Jesus.