Thursday, January 31, 2013

A Theory- Of Love and Friends.

So, this is a post that I've been thinking on for awhile now.
This may not be as interesting to you as it is to me- but feel free to comment about it to me!
 (I know most of the people who read this will not comment, but might say something to me via email or facebook, and that's fine. I know commenting can be an annoying process)

First off, let's start with you. Who do you consider your closest friends? Why?

For me, right off the bat I see 3 close friends in my mind's eye that I can't imagine going through life without. They are gifts, and I'm so blessed!
But WHY do I feel this way?  Honestly? Because they spend time with me, they give fabulous hugs, and I know I can call them if I'm in a pinch, and I know at least one (for sure) would be here if I needed her to. They challenge me intellectually (one probably more than the other two. haha) and spiritually, and aren't afraid to ask some of the hard questions.
 That's just to name a few things.
(Proverbs 27:17  As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another )

I mean really, pretty much the only reason we have friends at all is because they can do something for us. (Selfish, right?) Well, we were created to need each other, just like we need God.
(Ecclesiastes 4:9-10   Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work; If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!)

But what is it that attracts to specific people? Of all 3 of my friends I'm thinking of I'm am VASTLY different than all three of them, and they are all vastly different from each other. So, what's some of the things that are in common?
Well, other than the obvious- agreeing on (most) doctrinal points, and perhaps enjoying some of the same things. Dancing, singing, gardening, talking etc. there's another thing!

And this is my theory- often some of the best friends are created because we have the same top love languages.
I'm sure you're familiar with the 5 love languages.

-Acts of service
-Words of affirmation
-Quality time

Of course, this is boxing people in a bit. ( I can hear one of my friends objecting right now about boxing people in. She's called me out on doing it before.) But I do believe there is SOME truth to this!

So, what are your top 2 or 3 love languages? Mine are (can you guess? If you know me well you should be able to! Because that's WHY you know me well. haha)
#1- Quality Time and #2- Touch.

I'm fairly certain those 3 close friends have at least one of those in their top 2.
Naturally, personality, interests, social standing, education, yada yada yada also plays into this- and there can be any number of combinations of these factors. But without thinking TOO hard. Think of your 1-3 closest friends. What do you do with them? Why do you love being with them?
Why you love being with them is probably partially the same reason they love being with you.

Interesting, huh?
I'm sure this is flawed... so don't pick it apart too much.

Monday, January 28, 2013

God's plans vs My plans

So, I was musing today on God's will for my life... my dreams, desires, hopes- and what I want to accomplish within my lifetime.
I was at Planet Fitness working out on the elliptical watching a bunch of older individuals work out, walk around. Something I noticed- not one of them looked happy.
(Granted, most people don't look overjoyed when working out... but still.)
Now I'm at Cups watching some older and middle aged people as I sit here typing. They don't look too happy either.
The question that comes to mind is this: When I'm old, will I be happy and satisfied with my life, the things I've done, and where I've been.... my path?
Immediately following the question an answer popped in my head like a light turning on.

The question is not 'will *I*  be happy with my life'.
The REAL question is... Will God be happy with my life? It works just like a circle, or a pattern.
If GOD is happy with my life , then I will be happy with  my life; because I followed His plan, and His plans are perfect.

So why do I stress about it? Why do I struggle and mope, search and strive?
If it's in His plan, it will happen.

Sure, there are many many things I WANT to do. (See previous post) But if they aren't in God's plan for me they will be vanity and dead ends and I wouldn't be truly joyful and happy doing them.

Someday I want to be an old lady, and able to tell my children and grandchildren "I followed HIS plan". No matter the ending. I want them to see me happy, content, and joyful; resting in the arms of One Who Loves me.

Oh Abba, help me to trust you to lead. In all circumstances, no matter the cost.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Runaway Gypsy Song

I want to buy a one way ticket
and fly away from here
but I can't cause i've got a fear
of never being found

But why not? It's all relative.
Why not just escape?
go on an adventure
Throw caution to the winds

My heart is wanting freedom
but my head is saying no
to be, and live
far from these normal chains

Im in a rut, and I want out
This is my Runaway Gypsy song
Wild on free
It has a hold on me.

So do I follow my heart?
Or let my  mind win.
I know what you would say.
But that can't hold me down

But still I wonder
If I ran away from here
Would there be ties
Or would all be gone?

would I lose all I've gained?
If I just disappeared?
Yes... and no...
I might gain a whole lot too.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Gadzooks. It might SNOW (a rant on crazy VA people)

So, I don't often rant...but sometimes I do. This is one of the times I do.

I'm not a panicky person, and sometimes panicky people annoy me. As does freaking out over un-necessary things. Snow isn't really one of those things to freak out over, I don't think. The drecho this past summer.... yes THAT was a big deal. Snow? Nope. People up north carry on normal lives in several feet of snow, and actually like it! Soooo.....

First off, I'll believe it's going to snow when I SEE IT SNOWING AND STICKING.
Until then, no.
I've heard multiple reports- ranging from 1-3 inches, all the way up to 9 inches. Great.
People have already canceled babysitting. *shakes head* Gee. Thanks y'all. I kinda needed that money.

And no, I'm NOT going to run to walmart to get my bread, milk, eggs, and other things panicky crazy VA people get when we might be snowed under and unable to go ANYWHERE at 1-3 inches.
I mean, lets face it...we will starve in the possible 24 hours it MIGHT stick here in central VA.
 So QUICK! Buy bread, milk, and eggs,how about a plant to brighten up the room?, extra batteries, a new toilet seat, enough beans and rice to feed africa, lettuce, maybe some ammo in case we need to hunt squirrels, skis, gummy bears, lanterns, some extra camping gear for good measure, and a giant snow shovel (for our 1-3 inches of snow), and maybe a bit more milk. Never know...

I'm feeling sarcastic. Can you tell?

Now I feel better. 

Monday, January 14, 2013

Brains, beans, brakes.

Hey Y'all! 

 So, earlier today I came across this quote:

"Don't be so open-minded your brains fall out" (G. K. Chesterton)
My first reaction was to bust out laughing at the mind-picture. But then I actually thought about it. It is TRUE! That's exactly what might happen. People often get so "enlightened" and "open minded" and "tolerant" that eventually, they have nothing concrete to stand for; and go running around to the next big fad or belief system. As time passes all these people can stand for IS open-mindedness. Which in and of itself, I believe, is dumb. Agreed, we shouldn't just slam people for no good reason, or negate anyones beliefs just because they don't line up with ours... but we shouldn't just take on any doctrine, belief, or rule simply because we want to be open minded! 
A verse comes to mind, "Take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ our Lord". This means EVERY thought. Whether it comes from a trusted friend, or from someone you know is out to get you. (so to speak anyway).

Waffling around believing this thing, or that thing just isn't good for us. I'm preaching to myself just as much as to you, of course. I struggle with wanting to conform, to belong, and to be accepted into whatever group I happen to find. So, find the basics. Your doctrine, your belief system. What you rock solid, no doubt in your mind, KNOW to be true; and go from there! 

On to the beans part of my title... the other day I was marveling at the fact that I was, for a lack of anything else in the house, eating a can of black beans for dinner. Not the healthiest, but whatever. It could've been worse. Those of you who know me also know that I pretty rarely have anything worth eating in the house. I was thinking how lovely it was to just, you know... open beans and eat them. No cooking, no cleaning of dishes... I could just do my developmental psych reading, and eat beans. 
It was pretty awesome! ;)

As for brakes- I have a praise report!! I slid out into oncoming traffic in an intersection today, in the rain and fog, and nearly hit several cars. (I neglected to tell my parents this, but will later... hopefully they won't read it here first. LOL) Blessing is...I'm ALIVE, obviously! The other thing is, I went to firestone to get the brakes looked at- and it was a whopping $802 to have them fixed and a few measly metal parts replaced. I had a HERD OF COWS! That is ALOT OF MONEY. (Like, almost 2 weeks worth of work for me). 
Then I called another mechanic a friend gave me the number for..... turns out he and his wife are homeschool graduates, Christians, and know a bunch of people I do! Bottom line is, he fixed it for $129. Big difference, aye!? What a blessing.
Yah provides, my friends!! 

Anyway, that's my news for now. 

Blessings, love and light your way!

Friday, January 4, 2013

A (VERY RANDOM) picture post.

A recent pic of....ME!

And me- again. holding a deer heart (which I got for my birthday from a friend!!)

Floydfest 2012!
One of my best friends, Alaina. (she came to visit for my birthday) 

My sister Lauren, and "adopted sister"Hope (duck faces. yipes!)

I dyed a bit of my hair purple this summer.

Horseback riding in Buchanan with a friend. 

 My Halloween Costume- a Gypsy!

Picture I painted for a friend.

Dissecting a deer brain with my friend "Wyatt". (Not pictured cause I didn't think he'd want to be on the blog)

A hairdo! (Done by alaina)


A hand bound journal I made for a friend for Christmas. (If you know her, which some of you do- you might see it in person!) I was quite proud of this one... I've made 7 so far. 

Another bestie, Katie and I! We are on top of a mountain- at peaks of otter.

Another picture I painted. 

I hope some of you enjoyed these pictures!! I wanted to put up more, but many were of just me (boring)- or of friends. I wasn't sure if those friends would want their pictures online.

(posted just for YOU. Yes, you *know* who you are.)

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

2012. On Trust, Bravery, and Friendship (among other things)

When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
Ps. 61:2

Ahh, 2012. What a crazy, wonderful, turbulent year it was. Indeed, I am glad it's over. It's somehow refreshing to have a whole new year stretched out in front of you, full of possibilities and new things. Of course, it's rather scary on the whole, but a good scary. Anyhow- on to the original topic. 
What I have learned this past year. (I'm sure this would be a much longer post if I had my other journal with me. It's sad how much I forget and need to go back over. But it is what it is.)

1. Trusting God.
 I am still working on this one. Not alone, of course- with God's help. It's a long process. Trusting that God is sufficient for everything I need. Finding my sufficiency in God alone; Not work, money, friends, or other earthly things. Then truly believing this fact, and leaning on God, His Word, and His interpretation of my life rather than my own. 

2. Suffering has it's purposes. 
When God allows suffering it's for a reason.  It's not an enemy, but a friend in disguise, and as painful as it can be while it's there it's always worth it in the end. I still dread pain and suffering in all it's forms, but I'm learning not to. If I can let go of my fear and trust myself to faithful, loving, gentle Creator and accept that He has a purpose behind the darkness then I can fall into the arms of Love without hesitation. 

3. Becoming who I am. 
I am learning to be who I am, and who I'm meant to be. Trying to be a shadow of someone else not only puts you in their shade (yes, you can quote me on that) but it keeps you from being the person God meant you to be. I think often I'm misunderstood. Some people (who think they know me pretty well) think I'm a whole lot more "crazy" or "out there" than I actually am. Sure, I do have a bit of a more wild flare and  maybe some more pizzaz than the next girl … but really, who I am when I'm by myself, in a familiar environment, or when I'm just relaxed and myself… is pretty out and out boring. (To me anyway). I suppose we all must have boring bits of ourselves. But then, who would want to be wild and wooly all the time? Seems exhausting. Anyway, I'm learning to be me- and not someone else's idea of who I should be. 

4. Being "brave" is over-rated. 
Sometimes we all need a little help. I've found myself being bull headed this past year (well, probably longer than that.) And refusing help of any kind when offered. I somehow thought I was a better person for plowing on alone. Then God pointed out my sin of pride. And in that sin, I was depriving someone else of a blessing through blessing me. So- really, we were both out of blessings! Ugh. Stupid pride. 

5. "Where you invest your Love, you invest your life".
A line from one of my favorite songs by Mumford & Sons. If you stop and ponder that thought for a moment you'll find it's very true. 

6. The first step of healing is letting the wound scab over. 
That's something I'd not allowed my wounds to do for awhile. The body and the soul are not too different. A wound on your body won't heal unless you quit picking at it and leave it alone. Same way with the soul. Some things just need time to heal. 

7. Take on Christ's identity. 
I focus too much on what I do, or what I want to do, rather than who I am. For REAL. Way down deep inside. At the very core of myself- I am a Daughter of the King. His Handmaiden. Someone asked me the other day 'what are you now?'. ( yes, strange question) I answered that I was a student midwife, I worked, and I was in pre-nursing classes. Later I stopped to think about that answer, and the actual question. Those 3 things are what I DO. Not what I AM. I'm sure I'm over thinking my friends question, however… the point remains. So often we get mixed up with what we do and make what we do into what we are. I DO midwifery. I AM a daughter of the King. 

8. Not all friends are Friends.
Just because I have 900 something friends on Facebook doesn't make them all my friends. How many of those "friends" would I call at 2am when I'm having a bad night? Which friends would I ask to meet me at the mall for Coffee? What friends would I tell something I was really struggling with and ask for prayer? And of THOSE friends…which of those would do the same to/for me? 
To be honest… not that many at all. I've been thinking about the fact that it's not about the amount of "friends" that you have, but the quality of those friendships. 

9. Freedom is overrated. 
So many young people my age are focussed on freedom, independence, and other things along that line. Well…like everything else, it comes with a price. I can't tell you how many times this past year I've thought.. "I WISH someone would just TELL ME WHAT TO DO!" Unfortunately, things never work that way. 

10. People don't have the right to speak in my life.
It seems lately that multitudes of people have felt the need to "speak into" my life. Well, after a period of trying to make everyone happy, follow everyone's advice, and throw myself in 20 different ways… I decided enough is enough! Now, I've learned to consider the person speaking- the quality of their life, the choices they've made, what kind of relationship they have with me, what's their agenda? In other words, what right do they have to speak into my life? What right do they have to even be IN my life?  What kind of friendship is it? Do we build each other up?

So, there are 10 things I've learned in 2012. (Well, I'm sure some were building up for a long time) As a result of these things I've learned here are a list of things I'm going to work on this New Year. 

-Trust God with small and big things
-Be careful who I call friend, and work on the right friendships.
-Don't allow just anyone to speak into my life.
-Be REAL with everyone.
-Invest my Love in the right places. 

Happy New Year!! 
Be Blessed, 
~Kate :)

Phil. 4:6
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything with prayer and supplication with thanksgiving make your requests known to God. And the peace of God which passes all understanding will rule in your hearts through Christ Jesus.