So, I was musing today on God's will for my life... my dreams, desires, hopes- and what I want to accomplish within my lifetime.
I was at Planet Fitness working out on the elliptical watching a bunch of older individuals work out, walk around. Something I noticed- not one of them looked happy.
(Granted, most people don't look overjoyed when working out... but still.)
Now I'm at Cups watching some older and middle aged people as I sit here typing. They don't look too happy either.
The question that comes to mind is this: When I'm old, will I be happy and satisfied with my life, the things I've done, and where I've been.... my path?
Immediately following the question an answer popped in my head like a light turning on.
The question is not 'will *I* be happy with my life'.
The REAL question is... Will God be happy with my life? It works just like a circle, or a pattern.
If GOD is happy with my life , then I will be happy with my life; because I followed His plan, and His plans are perfect.
So why do I stress about it? Why do I struggle and mope, search and strive?
If it's in His plan, it will happen.
Sure, there are many many things I WANT to do. (See previous post) But if they aren't in God's plan for me they will be vanity and dead ends and I wouldn't be truly joyful and happy doing them.
Someday I want to be an old lady, and able to tell my children and grandchildren "I followed HIS plan". No matter the ending. I want them to see me happy, content, and joyful; resting in the arms of One Who Loves me.
Oh Abba, help me to trust you to lead. In all circumstances, no matter the cost.